This month Iâ€™ve been learning a lot about receiving and letting go: receiving the goodness the universe offers me at every turn, and letting go of my expectations for how life â€śshouldâ€ť be.
To be honest, the first two months of the year were pretty rough. There were some circumstances – a break up and an impending move – but most of the suffering was self-induced (isnâ€™t that usually the case!?) I let my mind go into the negative, dark places at nearly any opportunity.
When offered a sweet apartment in a great location, I lamented that Iâ€™d have to climb up the hill and wouldnâ€™t ride my bike as much. I worried about the north facing window not providing enough light. I said I wasnâ€™t ready to move.
Some days I was upbeat, looking at new apartment possibilities and willingly starting to pack. Most of the time, though, I was kicking and screaming, resisting change. I even had a nightmare that I would have to sell most of my furniture because the new place was so small.
Let me say that those around me were quite surprised when, upon moving into my new place, I was actually DELIGHTED. I felt so blessed. I saw everything in a new light. The apartment is beautiful. I love the new color of the walls. My furniture has never looked so good! The layout is awesome; everything has a proper place. And, oh, how could I forget? The neighborhood is so special. Itâ€™s quiet and residential. And I get to walk up and over Telegraph Hill every day to work. Hello, incredible views.
Quite the turnaround, eh? What surprised me the most was that in spite of my intense resistance to the flow of my life, I was offered such amazing gifts. Iâ€™ve learned a lot the past few weeks. Now, when Iâ€™m offered something new, my first inclination will be to ask a question: â€ťI wonder what it would be like to…?â€ť And, after some reflection, if it feels pretty OK — doesnâ€™t have to be or feel perfect — Iâ€™m going to practice saying, â€śWhy not?â€ť And see what emerges. Is there a place in your life where an open ended inquiry would bring some light into an otherwise dark corner?
Spring forward – just take that leap! I’ll be right there with you.
Eat well. Be well. Thrive.
E. ChloĂ© Lauer BA, MUP, Certified Health & Lifestyle Coach, Yoga Teacher in Training San Francisco health & lifestyle coach specializing in allergies, Crohnâ€™s/Colitis, and Gluten-Free living; serving the Bay Area and beyond via phone & Skype consultations: sign up here to speak with me!